Archive for March, 2005

Eyes Front
31 March, 2005

Over the last few years I've noticed that some people think I'm looking at them. Which I am. But not in that way.

A case in point was the man addressed in this entry. I was waiting patiently in a gift shop while my family shopped. He and his slatternly-attired daughter entered the store. I looked at them and he bristled, as if I was ogling his daughter. Which I wasn't. (But, of course, if he was that worried he could buy her some less revealing clothes.)

I was checking both of them for threats. It took me years to even realize that I do that and more years to realize that most people don't. (It may also explain why I ended up at a therapist who works with vets.) I instinctively check their hands for weapons and then inspect their clothing for concealment. Lastly I check their eyes for intent.

It's not the traditional “down-and-up” ogle, although I can see how someone might mistake it for that if they only saw the “up”. That's not to say that I don't enjoy gazing upon attractive people. But that's not my first goal. Large crowds just make it worse; there's so many more threats.

I know that it's a cliche about the macho guy that doesn't want people sitting behind him so he always sits at the back of the room. But it's not like that for me. It's part of my survival habits. Threats can come from unexpected directions.

So now, even when I've realized that some people misinterpret it, I still do it. The instinct is burned too deep.


Here's your Sign
31 March, 2005

Sir, if we can count the stitches on your sixteen-year-old daughter's bra, her T-shirt is too tight.

It is Finished
29 March, 2005

The SmartForm has been signed by all the signatories. I am now officially an employee of the new division. What a relief. Just eight more workdays of silliness and it's on to better things.

I still wish I could take with me, though.

They Just Don't Get It
25 March, 2005

This morning I received an email with the following admonition:

Recently we have received requests from two motion picture studios to investigate the possible use of Company Name's internet access to illegally download materials belonging to the studios. This is a serious matter. Companies such as Warner Brothers Entertainment employ anti-piracy software to protect their products and any attempt to download such materials may be traced back to Company Name through the use of IP addresses.

So, if I read this correctly, Warner Brothers wants us to view their trailers online but they “employ anti-piracy software to protect their products” by collecting IP addresses. This would mean that the disputed downloads were from a Warner Brothers server, one over which Warner Brothers had enough control to install their “anti-piracy software” [sic]. This seems like the trivial case.

Look, Hollywood, if you do not want us to see your content, then do not put it on your servers. Problem solved, litigation avoided.

Hopefully soon it will all be over
24 March, 2005

Whilst on vacation, I got a voice mail from the manager of another group inside my company offering me a position on his team. It would be pure product development, not service, inside an entirely separate (and thus more sane) division. I think this will be a positive move for me and my career. More importantly, it's statistically impossible that it will be as stressful as my current position. I'm meeting with him tomorrow morning to discuss the particulars. Hopefully by the Ides of April I'll be from the acid-tab-dropping insanity of the current group.

Sadly the new group has room for only one and must stay behind for now. But remember: ohana means no one gets left behind or forgotten.

What's Going on Here?
17 March, 2005

Today I am treated on the television to coverage of a congressional investigation into the use of performance-enhancing drugs (“steroids”) in baseball. I know of no more delicate way to put this than: who bleepin' cares?

We have professional athletes who are paid for their physical skills, skills that require the use of and the wear on their bodies, who are trying to find every edge they can to excel in their profession. They made their choices. I think the choice of using HGH is extremely short-sighted and downright foolish. But you could say the same thing about being a cage fighter or a rodeo clown.

How is the use of andro or EPO or HGH that much different than hours of weight-training every day? Neither are “natural” and both may have long-term effects on the body. Why is one “wrong” and the other “right”? But if the congresscritters are so concerned about the health of Americans, they could save a lot more lives by putting tight restrictions on cigarettes rather than roids.

Until they take on tobacco, the politicians are not really interested in our health. They are just grandstanding. Again.

17 March, 2005

From et al:

Tell me three things I ought to do before I die.

Then, if you care to, post this in your LJ and ask your friends to do the same.

A Last-Minute Commuting
16 March, 2005

Today the HR person from another company cancelled my interview there tomorrow. While part of me is frustrated by the late warning, I am rather relieved. The prospect of interviewing anywhere (not just there) again this week was daunting. I'm all stressed out; I wasn't looking forward to another gauntlet.

It's Better than the Alternative
15 March, 2005

The interviewing is ramping up. As much as I know that I need to find a new place to work, I find the process very stressful. (Of course, it's not nearly as stressful as when the bastards lay you off.) Not only am I forced to perform for hours at a time, I'm also presented with a heaping boatload of change.

Not too surprising
12 March, 2005

The Monk

You scored 5% Cardinal, 69% Monk, 47% Lady, and 45% Knight!
You live a peaceful, quiet life. Very little danger comes you way and you live a long time. You are wise and modest, but also stagnant. You have little comfort, little food and have taken a vow of silence. But who needs chatter when just sitting in the cloister of your abbey with The Good Book makes you perfectly content.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender

You scored higher than 1%
on Cardinal
You scored higher than 89%
on Monk
You scored higher than 63%
on Lady
You scored higher than 42%
on Knight

Link: The Who Would You Be in 1400 AD Test written by KnightlyKnave on Ok Cupid